Freedom Looks Good On You

When I was a young kid I always felt like I was insignificant, never good enough, ugly, and fat. As I grew up believing these lies I started to dislike who I was more and more. The arguments I had with my dad left me feeling unworthy. When my dad drank, or went off in rage it left me feeling like something was wrong with me. The people at school who called me ugly and fat left me believing those things. When I would work hard and then be made to feel like I was never good enough left me feeling incapable. I got into a relationship after high school that completely tore me down and crushed me in every way possible left me feeling hopeless, unlovable, and just that I would never be enough. 

That dislike turned to hate. That hate for myself remained for a long time. The Lord made me aware of that self hatred last year. Unfortunately, I continued to place the blame on other people for not seeing me as: significant, good enough, good looking, or perfectly created. I didn’t give it to Him. I tried out of my own strength to change the way I thought. Time and time again after failing to the same old sin patterns I never went after the root issue.  The truth of the matter is it’s not about what other people think. It’s not about what other people has done to me or says about me. It’s about who God says I am. 

So, once I shifted from blaming external things and looked internally I found the root issue. The root issue to the sin in my life, the root issue for me agreeing with those lies from the enemy, the root issue for a lot of my internal struggles and problems. I found that it was because I hated what God had created, I hated my body image, I felt insignificant in every thing I did, I felt unlovable, and I thought I could never be any different. I had a heart issue. The Lord says in the Bible that he wants to give us a new heart and a new spirit. So I gave it to God, I held my heart out and said Lord here is everything. He is making me a new heart and giving me a new spirit. He is renewing me and restoring me. 

It says in Colossians 1:21-22 “Once you were alienated from God and were enemies in your minds because of your evil behavior. But now he has reconciled you by Christ’s physical body through death to present you holy in his sight, without blemish”, blameless, flawless, restored and without accusation.  

It’s a process and He is healing me. I have received a lot of freedom in Honduras. This is the one of the biggest things I have received freedom in. He isn’t done yet! There is levels to freedom and I am continually stepping into new ones as this process continues!  When the lies of the enemy come I cast them out and speak truth  over myself. I am literally having a renewing of my mind. The way I think is becoming different, the way I speak is changing, the way I walk is changing, He is making me into all He wants me to be! When you are set free from things that you have carried for so long you just never realize how heavy they are until the weight is lifted. Freedom changes things. Freedom makes you walk different, think different, and as a maverick city song says freedom looks good on you.

This is some of the things He says about us!

• Genesis 1:26-27 He created me in His image and made me to have authority here on earth. 
• Psalms? ?139:13-16 You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother’s womb. Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it. 
• Genesis 2:5-7 God breathed his very spirit into us!
• 1 Peter 2:9 I am a royal priest, He called me out of the darkness into the light 
• Ephesians 1:5 He decided to adopt me into His family before I was ever conceived, and it gave Him great pleasure
• Romans 8:38 nothing can separate me from the love of my father!  

There is so many more scriptures about who God says I am. God is so amazing! I never thought healing would come but it’s here. He is hiding these truths in my heart and the enemy no longer has power over these areas. The temptations and lies may still come but i know the truth. The truth is setting me free and who the Son sets free is free indeed! 

I wanted to share this with all of you and I hope you are blessed by it. I will be writing another blog soon! I love you all! Just continue ti be in prayer over lies of the enemy, for a complete heart healing, for complete and total freedom!